It is truly maddening to think about the pain of existence. Maybe this is what separated me from the system. With this desire and purpose, I have been walking with determination for days to see the reality of the prophecies granted to me in my dreams. With each step I take, I am breaking away from my own reality a little more and moving into another universe... Really, what was real?
After thirteen days, I reached the place I had seen in my dream. Now, I needed a sign. I was looking for a clue to fulfil the prophecy. I looked up at the sky, the sun was setting. The gentle breeze, the soil under my feet, the magnificent birds flying in the sky and the willow tree up ahead... It was as if all of nature was celebrating my presence there. It was greeting its masters and the sun was leaving my presence to make way for other stars. At that very moment, I closed my eyes. I opened my arms to the sides. One of my palms was pointing up and the other down. I started to visualize all my dreams from beginning to end in my mind. Then, with my eyes still closed and still in the same body position, I started to turn slowly to the left. The wind was trying to tell me something. The wind started to blow harder as I turned. Exactly after completing my thirtieth turn, I fell to my knees.
When I slowly opened my eyes, I saw a fox standing in front of me. This fox, sitting in a noble position, gave the impression of being a saint. There was a black fire symbol right between the fox's eyes and close to its forehead. After examining me closely, the fox began to speak.
"Let day and night change places. Let souls return to dark eternity"
The sun had set and the stars were slowly starting to appear. That unfamiliar but powerful energy inside me surrounded my entire body. I was now transitioning to another dimension, an unknown. One of my palms was on my knee, facing the sky, and my right palm was in contact with the ground. An incredible energy was circulating throughout my entire body, gradually making me lighter. I sang along with the fox’s words, focused on his eyes.
‘’Let day and night change places. Let the lord return to her dark eternity.’’
The holy fox stood up and started walking towards the willow tree. I followed him behind and reached the willow tree. I knelt again and extended my forehead to the trunk of the tree and my palms to its roots. My soul reached underground and reached the heart of the willow. Under a starry sky, with a willow in front of me and a holy fox next to me, I possessed the energy of nature. As I felt the energy, everything around me began to shine. The fox’s eyes, the willow’s leaves and most of all the stars…
I remained like this for three days and three nights. Neither the fox nor I moved. On the third night, the willow murmured.
I remained like this for three days and three nights. Neither the fox nor I moved. On the third night, the willow murmured.
‘’Earth, water, air and fire. May the souls attain infinite wisdom.’’
I pulled my palms from the soil and pressed them against the trunk of the tree. I threw my head back and looked up. Then I followed what the willow said.
‘’Moss, stars and lavender. Let the door open, let the stone stairs go up’’
At that moment the willow tree split in two. There was a large hole under the tree. When I looked down through the hole I saw the stars. Without a doubt, this was the last stage and door I had to go through. After this, I would perhaps wake up in a different form and never remember what I had experienced. The fox standing behind me approached me and looked down through the hole. When he turned his face towards me our eyes met and he started talking.
‘’The wisdom of nature and the wisdom of the sky are two important disciplines that complement each other. But without a doubt, it is only the fate of rulers to possess the energy of these two. Lords transform into a new form of energy after passing through the stargate. On this path all power is lost and all secrets are forgotten. You came here knowing this power that was granted to you from the very beginning.’’
I raised my head to the sky, took a deep breath and closed my eyes.
“What if I don’t forget?” I asked, turning to the fox. The fox’s eyes suddenly opened wide in horror.
“The power of the great lord is quite strong. If only your power is lost but you don’t forget the secrets or remember some of them, then this means that you will continue your life under a great spiritual burden until you open the Lavender Gate. The Lavender Gate is a level that breaks the cycle and takes you to a completely different form. A saint like me cannot know what is happening there, lord. Therefore, it is not known whether the Lavender Gate is a curse or possessing the highest power.”
As I felt the sweet breeze blowing on my face, my hair moved delicately like the leaves of the willow tree and came before my eyes. I brushed the hair in front of my eyes behind my ear and turned towards the fox.
“I tell you the truth. I am not an ordinary Lord. All the lords you saw were here to prepare you. For this reason, I will open the lavender gate and see what no lord has seen before. All the actions I take there will affect those I leave behind. For I came into being as an awakened soul.’’
The fox took a step back in fear. I put my hand on it and said these words.
“The sacred willow split, the stars appeared. The sacred fire will return and transmit a trust…”
Every particle of the fox and the willow began to emit light and a terrible roar could be heard from underground. Was I a curse or a saviour? The stargate behind me began to grow louder. This showed that my time here was up and I had to leave. Since all the willow’s energy had been used up for the gate, I could only use the fox’s energy to send a trace and signal back. That’s what I did. After I finished my work and watched the remaining white light return the way I came, I threw myself down the stargate.
